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Mumia Abu-Jamal
Kathy Acker
Erje Ayden
Jean Baudrillard
Barbara Barg
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Michèle Bernstein
Dhoruba Bin Wahad
Catherine Breillat
William Burroughs
Pierre Clastres
Dhoruba Bin Wahad
Guy Debord
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Tony Duvert
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Michel Foucault
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Heiner Müller
Eileen Myles
Antonio Negri
François Peraldi
David Rattray
Gerald Raunig
Suely Rolnik
Ann Rower
Assata Shakur
Peter Sloterdijk
Abdellah Taïa
Michelle Tea
Lynne Tillman
Masha Tupitsyn
Paul Virilio
Paolo Virno
Mark von Schlegell
David Wojnarowicz
Heather Woodbury
Nina Zivancevic
Erje Ayden

Sadness at Leaving

“I wonder if it is lustful

A tank in its dreams

What do airplanes think

When left alone?

We did not seek happiness

We invented sadness

Were we not of this world?”

- Orhan Veli epigram to Sadness at Leaving

During the 1960s and 70s, Turkish-born Erje Ayden served as house pulp fiction writer to the New York School of painters and poets. Friend and sometime bodyguard to the artist Willem De Kooning, Ayden self-published 7 pop novels, written in rapid amphetamine bursts in borrowed apartments and rooming houses. Sadness at Leaving , re-published by Semiotext(e) in 1998, is Ayden's most autobiographical work-if one accepts, as he claims, that he worked as a spy for the Turkish government throughout those years.

East Berlin, 1959: Following the erection of the Berlin wall, special agent Carl Halman is assigned by East German intelligence to move to New York where he'll "sleep" as a writer until he is called. Using the code-name "April 23," Carl successfully infiltrates the uptown-downtown literary world in 1950s New York. He edits a magazine, follows the Knicks, and marries Melinda, the socialite wife of best-selling jock novelist Hubert Cleaver, Ayden's hilarious Norman Mailer pastiche. Through Carl's eyes, we see New York City change from an outpost of Europe to the new capital of an anarchistic, post-ideological world. But then, when Carl least expects it, he's called.

"Ayden is the traditional 'foreigner'... an alien wherever he is, probing and disfiguring ordinary reality, accepting its most peculiar and neurotic aspects as quite unexceptional. Through his eyes we see an 'Amerika' as odd as Kafka's; as funny and absurdly sad."

— Frank O'Hara